Frustration, Hope and Faith

Frustration is taking me over.  I am frustrated with our bus Seven, with myself, with Steve, with everything having to do with this transformation. 

Answers to our questions of "How do we do...." framing around the windows, the bus heater than we may or may not should have torn out, the control panel in the front, how to finish the front stairs.....never seem to have answers. 

The question of "How will we pay for all this"?  The heater, the refrigerator, the solar panels, the composting toilet, the hot water heater. 

The question of "How and where will we mount the water tanks, the propane tanks?  How will we add a tow hitch? What will we be towing for Steve's artwork?". 

How will it all come together?  How can there be so many facebook pages, blogs, Skoolie sites, and youtube videos and no answers to our questions?  How much more time can I waste looking for answers that are nowhere to be found?

I am tired.  Tired of no answers, tired of physically hurting, tired of not agreeing on finishes to the bus.....just tired. 

Hope and faith.....this is all I have left. 

Hope that the frustration will give way to inspiration.  Hope the physical pain will decrease.  Hope that the answers will come. 

Faith in that all will work out.  Faith in that our ideas will work.  Faith in that the money will come.  Faith in that WE can make it work, with the love of each other, on a bus, together.  I gotta' have faith. 

-Jennifer